The Red Letter Poem Project The Red Letters 3.0: A New Beginning (Perhaps)

 

PUBLISHED TODAY!  I was asked to write an essay for Askold Melnyczuk’s Arrowsmith Journal about what I learned from the first year of the Red Letter Project.  It also became a meditation about the relationship between poet and reader.  If you’d like to take a look, here is a link –

https://www.arrowsmithpress.com/community-of-voices

 

-- and you’ll also be able to check out the variety of marvelous literary projects that appear under Askold’s Arrowsmith imprint.  Enjoy!

 

The Red Letter Poem Project

 

The Red Letters 3.0: A New Beginning (Perhaps)   

At the outset of the Covid pandemic, when fear was at its highest, the Red Letter Project was intended to remind us of community: that, even isolated in our separate homes, we could still face this challenge together. As Arlington’s Poet Laureate, I began sending out a poem of comfort each Friday, featuring the fine talents from our town and its neighbors. Because I enlisted the partnership of seven local arts and community organizations, distribution of the poems spread quickly – and, with subscribers sharing and re-posting the installments, soon we had readers, not only throughout the Commonwealth, but across the country. And I delighted in the weekly e-mails I’d receive with praise for the poets; as one reader recently commented: “You give me the gift of a quiet, contemplative break—with something to take away and reflect on.”



Then our circumstance changed dramatically again: following the murder of George Floyd, the massive social and political unrest, and the national economic catastrophe, the distress of the pandemic was magnified. Red Letter 2.0 announced that I would seek out as diverse a set of voices as I could find – from Massachusetts and beyond – so that their poems might inspire, challenge, deepen the conversation we were, by necessity, engaged in.



Now, with widespread vaccination, an economic rebound, and a shift in the political landscape, I intend to help this forum continue to evolve – Red Letter 3.0. For the last 15 months, I’ve heard one question again and again: when will we get back our old lives? It may pain us to admit it, but that is little more than a fantasy. Our lives have been altered irrevocably – not only our understanding of how thoroughly interdependent we are, both locally and globally, but how fragile and utterly precious is all that we love. Weren’t you bowled over recently by how good it felt just to hug a friend or family member? Or to walk unmasked through a grocery, noticing all the faces? So I think the question we must wrestle with is this: knowing what we know, how will we begin shaping our new life? Will we quickly forget how grateful we felt that strangers put themselves at risk, every day, so that we might purchase milk and bread, ride the bus to work, or be cared for by a doctor or nurse? Will we slip back into our old drowse and look away from the pain so many are forced to endure – in this, the wealthiest nation on the planet? Will we stop noticing those simple beauties all around us? The poet Mary Oliver said it plainly: “Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?” I will continue to offer RLP readers the work of poets who are engaged in these questions, hoping their voices will fortify all of ours.



Two of our partner sites will continue re-posting each Red Letter weekly: the YourArlington News Blog (https://www.yourarlington.com/easyblog/entry/28-poetry/3015-redletter-061121), and the Boston Area Small Press and Poetry Scene (http://dougholder.blogspot.com). If you would like to receive these poems every Friday in your own in-box – or would like to write in with comments or submissions – send correspondence to: steven.arlingtonlaureate@gmail.com.



In ancient Rome, feast days were indicated on the calendar by red letters. To my mind, all poetry and art serves as a reminder that every day we wake together beneath the sun is a red-letter day.



– Steven Ratiner

 

    

 

Red Letter Poem #66





I first came across the African American spiritual years before I traced the source back to its Biblical roots: “Ezekiel saw the wheel,/ Way up in the middle of the air.” The simple but rousing song offered a cosmological vision and was, to my young mind, quite reassuring: there was order in the universe, discernable pattern, and forces far greater than my own to guide its course. “And the little wheel run by Faith;/ And the big wheel run by the Grace of God;/ A wheel in a wheel,/ Way up in the middle of the air.” What does it take to upset our vision of an orderly world? To return us to our childlike fears that chaos, perhaps, lurks at every turn, and the whole beautiful mechanism may come crashing down around us?



I think it may be necessary for us to acknowledge that we’ve all been shaken to the core: by the pandemic itself; by the loss of loved ones, or even just the threat of loss; by the sense that our nation’s traditional structures and foundational beliefs – once thought virtually indestructible – could, without warning, crumble before our eyes. Or worse, might never have existed in the first place – at least in the forms we imagined. But we are not the little children in the back seat of the car, trusting our godlike parents to steer; we are those very adults whose hands control the wheel – and there are children depending on us to navigate safely. Making her second Red Letter appearance, Joyce Peseroff offers a beguiling poem that seems to occupy a space somewhere between innocence and experience, or perhaps both at once. The speaker is literally positioned in the front seat of a car – but for her, this last year-and-a-half has made the world feel strangely mutable. She entertains the naïve belief that, looking away for a moment, a whole season might have slipped by without warning. And when she offers a litany of all the markers, ceremonies, rites of passage erased by the crisis, I could feel the little boy in me suffering his quiet outrage. . .until the poet conjures the voices of actual children in the back seat – and then I felt my grip tighten on the wheel once again.



And so the small wheel of the poem touches upon the great wheel of the year, turning still, offering us the day of longest sunshine, preparing us for the slow diminuendo ahead. I feel my life located within Joyce’s poem and, for the moment, at peace. “At the Summer Solstice” is making its first appearance in these Red Letters – but if you’d like more of her work, I can recommend Joyce’s newest collection Petition (Carnegie Mellon University Press) for its deeply humanistic vision and bracing voice.

  

At the Summer Solstice



Rain had sluiced the budding

cones from tips of pines

and in the dark, our headlights

took them for a fall mulch

of brown, tire-shredded leaves.



We thought another season

had gone AWOL, like spring

in its isolation bubble—no friend

given in marriage, or fitted

for a graduation gown, or standing



over thawed ground to bury

winter’s dead. Perhaps summer

too had passed without goodbyes

whispered face-to-face,

a crush kissed in a canoe,



or license plates tallied on

the holiday drive to Mama’s

Colorado cousins. Are we there yet?

kids ask a mile from home—

space and time a fluid mystery.





­–– Joyce Peseroff

We Haven’t Paid the Tab (2021, 63Channels Press) By Glen Feulner and B.K. Kovich

We Haven’t Paid the Tab (2021, 63Channels Press)

By Glen Feulner and B.K. Kovich

Review by Timothy Gager





It’s always interesting when friends from the early days of the internet, (back when you met people, rather than yell at them) stay in touch. I’ve known Glen Feulner on the internet for nearly 20 years, back from a site called Art Conspiracy. In this collection Glen and B.K. Kovich, who knew each other from that same site, and from the journal 63Channels are brought together in a new book of poetry called, We Haven’t Paid the Tab (2021, 63Channels Press)

The book is divided into three sections, the first two are each poets work standing alone, and the third section is one where the poets write together. What I found were two distinct voices on their own, which made me question how the collaborative section would work. What I found was that it worked and offered some nicely detailed poems to digest.

In Part I, Glen Feulner’s Epoxy, the work showed some good ranges in style and subject matter. Feulner plays with work which is very simple, such as in the poem Ride, where a man and woman ride, anticipating more than that---Feulner weighing in with the line “neon lights color you beautiful.” Feulner also can go deeper when he writes more complex, which he does equallywell. My favorite poem in this section is Causas Perierat which concludes with this wonderful verse:

This rise, the fall, the sweet & plain

Causas perierat, The thrum of souls

Caked in mud, nature lent war paint

Dawn breaks and morning dew betrays her





His poem Last Rite arouses the work Shakespeare, with themes and characters conjured advantageously. Feulner like Shakespeare is a writer who paints the world, knowing full well how it should work, while identifying its detours because the world as known, tends not to cooperate.

The section ends with an epic poem, Epoxy, a work of eight pages of free verse and free association describing how the poet’s world tries to remain glued together while everything he knows and experiences try to unravel him.





The second part of We Haven’t Paid the Tab is from B.K. Kovich, is a much grittier read. Somewhere Between Alcoholism and Madness, is themed by drinking too much, longing for connection, destroyed relations, insomnia, loneliness and despair. Yet, within those themes there is some very sensitive even sweet moments.

The section opens with the titular poem which opens with the narrator in full blown insomnia from alcohol and madness, describing his Morpheus…Bukowski.

Another poem which grabbed my attention was Alone a poem that anyone who has been morbidly lonely can identify with. Here Kovich identifies with the homeless while walking home from a night of drinking, and the rain washes the tears of the narrator rather than those destitute.

An abundance of homeless,

Hopelessly seeking shelter.

From the rain,

The rain...

Refusing to wash away

Sobbing, sniffling tears

Of despair.

Alone.





After this a poem Fleeting blindsided me with tenderness followed by an about face. It is a homage to a woman who sparkles, but at the end is the one to wear the horns. Bam!

Other poems I enjoyed in Kovich’s section were Baudelaire Thorn which hooks us with rhymes and beauty, yet, as Kovich indicates, the rose still will have its thorns. Additionally The Canonical Her works in pure meta, as the muse is the poem within the poem. Kovich runs in meta-form often: poems are in life, life are in poems, and poems or poets are in other poems as we;;.

The book concludes with the combined work of Feulner and Kovich which they named Clockwork Faith. Their collaborative effort, for me, came from two distinct voices merging which challenged me as a reader to solve the mystery of whom I thought wrote what part of each. This engaged me as a reader in a positive way. For example, Hope Bleeds I guessed verses 1 and 2 were Feulner’s and verse 3, Kovich, but, of course, I couldn’t know for sure.

Faded & tattered

Passed through countless hands

Ink bleeds into each palm

Becoming part of a new tale




Forgiven lust

Labeled "Forgot me not"

Hand over hand over heart

Awakening hope




Pulsing through throbbing temples

Brittle psyches grasping blindly

Shedding inhibitions

Fearing final destinations





Poems such as I Will Take the Plunge seemed more Kovich influenced, but a real beauty, Muted Notes, both poets are playing and writing in a very unmuted way as shown in the opening stanza.

The smooth arc

the bridge that leads to the chorus

the choir of voices

whispering you’ve failed




All in all, I found We Haven’t Paid the Tab worthy and interesting, as there is enough here to satisfy many different kinds of poets. I would love to hear them read this work together at some point in some venue which would add an extra something to this poetic experience.

The Red Letter Poem Project The Red Letters 3.0: A New Beginning (Perhaps)

 The Red Letter Poem Project

 

The Red Letters 3.0: A New Beginning (Perhaps)   

At the outset of the Covid pandemic, when fear was at its highest, the Red Letter Project was intended to remind us of community: that, even isolated in our separate homes, we could still face this challenge together. As Arlington’s Poet Laureate, I began sending out a poem of comfort each Friday, featuring the fine talents from our town and its neighbors. Because I enlisted the partnership of seven local arts and community organizations, distribution of the poems spread quickly – and, with subscribers sharing and re-posting the installments, soon we had readers, not only throughout the Commonwealth, but across the country. And I delighted in the weekly e-mails I’d receive with praise for the poets; as one reader recently commented: “You give me the gift of a quiet, contemplative break—with something to take away and reflect on.”



Then our circumstance changed dramatically again: following the murder of George Floyd, the massive social and political unrest, and the national economic catastrophe, the distress of the pandemic was magnified. Red Letter 2.0 announced that I would seek out as diverse a set of voices as I could find – from Massachusetts and beyond – so that their poems might inspire, challenge, deepen the conversation we were, by necessity, engaged in.



Now, with widespread vaccination, an economic rebound, and a shift in the political landscape, I intend to help this forum continue to evolve – Red Letter 3.0. For the last 15 months, I’ve heard one question again and again: when will we get back our old lives? It may pain us to admit it, but that is little more than a fantasy. Our lives have been altered irrevocably – not only our understanding of how thoroughly interdependent we are, both locally and globally, but how fragile and utterly precious is all that we love. Weren’t you bowled over recently by how good it felt just to hug a friend or family member? Or to walk unmasked through a grocery, noticing all the faces? So I think the question we must wrestle with is this: knowing what we know, how will we begin shaping our new life? Will we quickly forget how grateful we felt that strangers put themselves at risk, every day, so that we might purchase milk and bread, ride the bus to work, or be cared for by a doctor or nurse? Will we slip back into our old drowse and look away from the pain so many are forced to endure – in this, the wealthiest nation on the planet? Will we stop noticing those simple beauties all around us? The poet Mary Oliver said it plainly: “Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?” I will continue to offer RLP readers the work of poets who are engaged in these questions, hoping their voices will fortify all of ours.



Two of our partner sites will continue re-posting each Red Letter weekly: the YourArlington News Blog (https://www.yourarlington.com/easyblog/entry/28-poetry/3015-redletter-061121), and the Boston Area Small Press and Poetry Scene (http://dougholder.blogspot.com). If you would like to receive these poems every Friday in your own in-box – or would like to write in with comments or submissions – send correspondence to: steven.arlingtonlaureate@gmail.com.

 

In ancient Rome, feast days were indicated on the calendar by red letters. To my mind, all poetry and art serves as a reminder that every day we wake together beneath the sun is a red-letter day.



– Steven Ratiner

 

    

 

Red Letter Poem #65

 

 

Here is the first quatrain of one of my favorite poems by Du Fu, the great Tang Dynasty poet: “A shore of thin reeds in light wind/ a tall boat alone at night/ stars hang over the barren land/ the moon rises out of the Yangtze…”.   In the Asian literary tradition, the concept of being adrift does not conjure a notion of aimlessness, or being lost, as it might for us in the West.  It hints at a mind at peace, willing to be satisfied within the experience of the moment, entrusting one’s fate to the great currents of the river (a notion prominent in both Taoism and Buddhism.)  As a younger man, Con Squires employed his poetic talents in the service of an advertising job.  Once, when he was hospitalized with a serious illness, someone gave him a copy of Arthur Waley’s translations from the Chinese.  He explained to me that it changed his life.  Not only did it alter his poetic approach, it led him to examine how he was living his life at the time.

 

Fast forward, and now Con is retired, remarried, content.  Poetry, as always, is a main focus in his days – but no more so than his appreciation of family and friends, his attention to the landscape in which he lives, and even the simple pleasures of the daily tasks.  As the title makes clear, this poem was composed right in the heart of the pandemic, when fear and uncertainty ravaged most of our thoughts.  But using a technique Du Fu would certainly recognize, he began his day by simply paying attention.  And as attention deepens, anxiety and regret are replaced by the delight of the senses.  Neither the anchor of memory nor the swollen sails of a hoped-for day-to-come have much sway over the mind.  There is only the moment, unfolding – and perhaps the appearance of words to ink in that blank scroll.  And though the result is quite a simple and straightforward poem, the emotional reserves Con taps into are vast; we readers are glad to accompany him on this little journey.

 

Here’s how Du Fu’s poem resolves (in this lovely translation by Red Pine): “how could writing ever lead to fame/ I quit my post due to illness and age/ drifting along what am I like/ a solitary gull between Heaven and Earth”.  After a time, the powerful Tang empire was riven by civil war, famine, overwhelming loss.  Du Fu, retired, sailed East in hopes of returning to his home; he had to reshape his understanding of what would remain central in his life.  Sometimes the world is only this: this moment, this feeling, this breath.  Con Squires nods in agreement.  Considering the trials our country has been suffering through, perhaps we might consider joining them – if only for a moment.

 

 

February 25, 2021, 5:48 a.m.: Dawn Begins

(Homage to Du Fu)



Sky is gray-blue mixed with white,

a low dark growl of clouds at the far edge.



Village lights sparkle in a wood,

vagaries of wind among trees.



Our house hums around me,

upstairs my lovely wife sleeps.



We owe nothing, need nothing, do

nothing in particular. No one calls.



My heart is a sailing boat, unguided.

It leaves me far behind.



Below two paintings of urban life

a lamp is reflected in a window.



Winter at the western edge.

So much change in ten minutes.







— Con Squires

The Red Letter Poem Project The Red Letters 3.0: A New Beginning (Perhaps)

 The Red Letter Poem Project

 

The Red Letters 3.0: A New Beginning (Perhaps)   

At the outset of the Covid pandemic, when fear was at its highest, the Red Letter Project was intended to remind us of community: that, even isolated in our separate homes, we could still face this challenge together. As Arlington’s Poet Laureate, I began sending out a poem of comfort each Friday, featuring the fine talents from our town and its neighbors. Because I enlisted the partnership of seven local arts and community organizations, distribution of the poems spread quickly – and, with subscribers sharing and re-posting the installments, soon we had readers, not only throughout the Commonwealth, but across the country. And I delighted in the weekly e-mails I’d receive with praise for the poets; as one reader recently commented: “You give me the gift of a quiet, contemplative break—with something to take away and reflect on.”



Then our circumstance changed dramatically again: following the murder of George Floyd, the massive social and political unrest, and the national economic catastrophe, the distress of the pandemic was magnified. Red Letter 2.0 announced that I would seek out as diverse a set of voices as I could find – from Massachusetts and beyond – so that their poems might inspire, challenge, deepen the conversation we were, by necessity, engaged in.

 

Now, with widespread vaccination, an economic rebound, and a shift in the political landscape, I intend to help this forum continue to evolve – Red Letter 3.0. For the last 15 months, I’ve heard one question again and again: when will we get back our old lives? It may pain us to admit it, but that is little more than a fantasy. Our lives have been altered irrevocably – not only our understanding of how thoroughly interdependent we are, both locally and globally, but how fragile and utterly precious is all that we love. Weren’t you bowled over recently by how good it felt just to hug a friend or family member? Or to walk unmasked through a grocery, noticing all the faces? So I think the question we must wrestle with is this: knowing what we know, how will we begin shaping our new life? Will we quickly forget how grateful we felt that strangers put themselves at risk, every day, so that we might purchase milk and bread, ride the bus to work, or be cared for by a doctor or nurse? Will we slip back into our old drowse and look away from the pain so many are forced to endure – in this, the wealthiest nation on the planet? Will we stop noticing those simple beauties all around us? The poet Mary Oliver said it plainly: “Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?” I will continue to offer RLP readers the work of poets who are engaged in these questions, hoping their voices will fortify all of ours.

 

Two of our partner sites will continue re-posting each Red Letter weekly: the YourArlington News Blog (https://www.yourarlington.com/easyblog/entry/28-poetry/3015-redletter-061121), and the Boston Area Small Press and Poetry Scene (http://dougholder.blogspot.com). If you would like to receive these poems every Friday in your own in-box – or would like to write in with comments or submissions – send correspondence to: steven.arlingtonlaureate@gmail.com.



In ancient Rome, feast days were indicated on the calendar by red letters. To my mind, all poetry and art serves as a reminder that every day we wake together beneath the sun is a red-letter day.



– Steven Ratiner

 

    

 

Red Letter Poem #64

 

 

Context is everything.



When I first read Jeffrey Harrison’s poem “Temporary Blindness” from his collection Into Daylight (Tupelo Press), I marveled at the physicality of his experience of grief. The poem was written after the death of his brother, an event that shook him to the core. Usually, a poem such as this offers readers a vicariousness through which we can explore – until we turn the page and return to the safety of our own lives. But read these same opening lines today – “It lasted a year and a half/ as if grief had closed an inner lid/ between my eyes and brain” – and tell me you’re not shaking your head right now, thinking the poet is describing what we’ve all gone through ever since we were first introduced to those two quietly-sinister words: novel coronavirus.



Certainly we’ve experienced a tremendous loss of life – the U. S. total topped 600,000 this week, and the worldwide deaths are approaching four million – but there may be fifty times that number of people whose lives were turned inside out by the illness. And even for families spared such acute pain, haven’t we all been traumatized by this pandemic, our very sense of normalcy (admittedly, a concept built on shaky foundations) forced to undergo a permanent transformation? And what of the last fifteen months that seemed to vanish like mist? Bereft of the solace of family and friends? And the pleasures of communal spaces and shared enjoyments – things that underscore a sense of we in a world increasingly atomized and estranged? And then there are the young children for whom this crisis overshadows most of what they know of life on this planet – masked, distanced, tinged with anxiety – how do we assess this grief? So even as our American cities are reopening for business, it’s not surprising how adrift many of us are feeling today.



And so I wonder: might we be heartened by Jeffrey’s poem, the reminder that healing does occur, though perhaps at a glacial pace? Even more, there’s the suggestion that a certain element of choice may be involved in this process: our determination to sharpen attention – and appreciation – of the simple beauties close at hand. How can we not savor what so many millions have had to relinquish? This thought brought one of Kenneth Patchen’s poem-paintings to mind; he depicts two confetti-colored beings standing beside this epigrammatic line, written in a childlike scrawl: “The One who comes to question himself. . .has cared for mankind.” In our changed existence, what questions are we now willing to entertain?

 

Temporary Blindness

 

 

It lasted a year and a half,

as if grief had closed an inner lid

between my eyes and brain

or slipped a caul over my head.

 

I spent my days in the black space

inside me, orbiting a dead star.

Now I want to return to earth.

I want to come back from the dead,

 

to remove the sack from my head

and breathe again,

and let the world in—

 

here, now, right in front of me—

to be awakened by a lake

glittering through trees.

 

 

                           —Jeffrey Harrison

Who Do You Think You Are? Reflections of a Writer’s Life by Joe Torra

 

Who Do You Think You Are? Reflections of a Writer’s Life

Article by Doug Holder

As I sat on my porch with my cat Ketz, and a strong cup of coffee—I thought about Somerville writer Joseph Torra’s new memoir, “Who Do You Think You Are? Reflections of a Writer’s Life…”

One of the many things that struck me about this evocative memoir is the writer’s relationship with his wife Molly. I know it is a cliché about the love of a good woman, but often clichés are based somewhat on truth. As I struggle with my own wife’s battle with cancer, I can certainly relate to what Torra brings out here. Without Molly, Torra might not have had the strength to carry on; he would not would be exposed to the breadth of the arts; he might have remained stuck in the provincial milieu of Italian working-class Medford. He may never of realized his dream of being a poet, writer, educator, publisher and editor.

Yet Torra is all these things and more. He is the author of such novels as “Call Me Waiter,” “Gas Station,” to name just a couple. He founded the well-regarded literary journal Lift Magazine, and he teaches Creative Writing at U/Mass Boston.

Torra, although he is an adjunct professor of creative writing (where he got his advanced degree from) is not enamored with the academy. He realizes its worth, but on the other hand sees its major flaws. Torra, read the literary cannon –but realized that the universities are not as open to the non-mainstream voices that he was so influenced by. He has dealt with the tenure-track professorial pomposity, and the narrow strictures of a curriculum that stifled him as a youth. William Carlos Williams, a poet who had a great deal of influence on him, searched for the “American Voice,” not the ‘English” one. And Torra’s voice is truly authentic-- an amalgam of the poets, artists, writers, Medford characters, old Italian men gesturing at each other in a corner coffee-shop, not to mention all the stumble-bums, we all encounter in this life. He sees life straight, with no chaser.

Influenced by Kerouac and Beat generation writers, Torra has always experimented with form. His sentences can be like a short jazz riff, or long and breathless without punctuation. His fiction writing can be likened to an abstract painting—breaking out of the confines of traditional representational imagery. There is an immediacy to his prose and poetry.

Torra is unafraid to bleed in this memoir—he tells us of his struggle with his manic depression, the vagaries of addiction, and the nagging haunt of self doubt. But Torra is a survivor and he got by with the help of his community and the centering of his family. If did not have domesticity in his life, and was the stereotypical footloose artist —well... he might not be here to have written this book.

Like any writer worth his salt, he has read voraciously and gained solace and insight from Taoist philosophers and poets, Mark Twain, Gary Snyder and a host of others. He counts as his longtime mentors like Gloucester poets Gerrit Lansing, Vincent Ferrini, as well as Boston literary maestro Bill Corbett. He took what he could from these men, and recognized that some of them were deeply flawed, but brilliant in their own ways. He could separate the artist from the man or woman.

Torra is not one dimensional. He is primarily a writer, but he has engaged in cross-fertilization in the arts from painting, being part of Boston’s vibrant punk rock scene, to the art of mushroom hunting.. All of these things inform his body of work.

At 65, the writer looks back, meditating on his porch, at the struggle, joys, and the beauty of his life. He tells friends that “he is ready to die.” Which I can only interpret as man who is finally comfortable in his own skin, and can truly say, “it is, what it is.”

Poem: From the Hospital Window by Doug Holder

 ****Beth Israel Hospital,  Boston, MA.

My wife

rests in

her cancer

bed,

as some

nefarious,

chaotic weed

blooms and feeds

in her body.

I look out the window

to the towers

of Boston University

they pierce

the gray day

and I can not

forget them.

I see

West Campus

the high-rise dorms

where I lived

psychotic

from bad weed

I picked up

from a joker 

on the Common,

throwing bags of urine

out the window

afraid to be

exposed in the

men's room.

Downed by a Green Line trolley

on Commonwealth Ave

woke up faceup...

shocked 

on the track.

A man in the Rat

in Kenmore Square

guarding his beer

saw me in

my army jacket

and long hair

(if that was possible)

I was

a rebel from the

broad lawns and

narrow minds

of the Long Island suburbs,

He cocked his

hat and head,

" Hey, asshole

I want to suck

your ass bone dry."

I felt all this

hate....

Nixon

and Watergate,

nude streakers

on Nickerson Fields

rush the goals

breasts and penises

flap in the wind

in protest.

A remnant of the SDS rises

in my philosophy class

with no due respect

and challenges

the tenured pomposity

of the professor.

Frisbees fly 

through the air

in disparate directions

like the mayhem

in my head.

I greedily

munch cashews

in the 

TV room

(like they were

some elixir)

in the Sherman Union

wondering why the White Album

only speaks to me

and are 'they'

outside the door?