The Red Letters
In ancient Rome, feast days were indicated on the calendar by red letters.
To my mind, all poetry and art serves as a reminder that every day we wake together beneath the sun is a red-letter day.
––Steven Ratiner
Red Letter Poem #297
Opening
Dark but somehow clear,
the passageway. Childhood cats
run ahead of me. I'm seventy! What
a long walk. Did someone
call my name? Where's
my passport? Blood-rush loud
in my ears, or perhaps it's the ocean.
Yes. Somewhere a wave collapses,
another. Fish wear scales like snakes
and armadillos and butterflies
and none of them knows its name.
Now I've lost mine. Light comes
in waves, that's what I'm hearing,
but I can't see in the usual way.
How else? I'm not there yet.
––Pamela Alexander
I am a little dizzy amid the rush of images, the twisting syntax, in Pam Alexander’s new poem. Am I dreaming? Just waking? Or (and I have to consider the possibility) have I died and I’m floating on the Lethe, trying desperately to discern what lies just ahead? But somehow I find myself delighted to be carried along by these four surprising quatrains. Isn’t that the definition of authority: a sense that a writer is in control of her materials––even when the subject matter may be beyond ours? And thus, feeling we can trust the poetic voice, we can allow ourselves to be carried––strangely confident that we will arrive where we ought (a different destination, of course, for each set of eyes boarding this craft).
If perhaps, mid-river, I was somehow able to scribble quick notes in a mental-journal about my curious travels through this poem, these might be some entries: beginning with the title, that enticing initial letter O in “Opening”––calligraphic symbol, open vowel-sound. Was that a sun? A moon? An oculus? And who might be watching as I pass through? “Dark but somehow clear”––should I even be entering such a passageway? I’m sensing danger––but then: cats! The bliss of our childhood pets––that ginger tabby with the fluffy tail––perhaps it’s safe here after all. So I join the speaker in this “long walk.” “I'm seventy!” she declares. Crazy, yes? But I recognize the feeling. Wasn’t I, too, a child, only last week? Then suddenly: “Did someone/ call my name? Where's// my passport? Blood-rush loud/ in my ears…”. No turning back now, but the dread is mounting again––or not! It’s not my blood I hear thrumming at the temple––it’s the ocean, that encompassing presence, the mother of all life. Even though I take notice of each successive wave (“collapse” is quite a potent word), I can accept that the world is (as the mystics say) as it should be. The “fish wear scales like snakes” (uh-oh, heart rate elevating again), “and armadillos and butterflies// and none of them knows its name.” And now I've lost my name as well! What a huge step to even contemplate: becoming nameless, untethered from this marvelously elaborate, painfully cumbersome self I’ve been traveling inside all these decades. I’m trying to use the as it should be like a little mantra, to remain calm. “Light comes/ in waves, that's what I'm hearing”––audible light? Didn’t Dante speak of such luminous music?––“but I can't see in the usual way.” Of course not––neither the speaker nor the reader is “there yet.” Revelation, in whatever form it takes, does not come with previews, study guides. We are left to consider (and hopefully savor) this momentum––by which we are carried, and toward what inevitable destination awaits.
Pam is the author of five books of poetry, including Left, recent winner of the Chad Walsh chapbook prize from Beloit Poetry Journal. Her first collection, Navigable Waterways, won the prestigious Yale Prize, and her work has been showered with honors ever since. You may have run into her work in some of the important journals (The New Yorker, Poetry, The Atlantic, Orion, TriQuarterly, Plume), as well as numerous anthologies, including The Best American Poetry 2000, American Alphabets, The Extraordinary Tide, and Poetry for a Small Planet. Her work has also been featured on the websites of National Public Radio and the Academy of American Poets. After a leaving a teaching career at M.I.T. and Oberlin College, she wholly uprooted her life, and spent the next five years traveling North America in an RV with her cat. How can you not admire so adventurous a spirit? And it’s a quality I appreciate in all of her poetry––the kind of quiet daring we find in today’s piece, where she is inviting us to travel alongside her into a vast unknown. Just what is the “there” to which we are bound? At one time in my life, I might have envisioned (along with Signore Alighieri) that: “Heaven wheels above you, displaying to you her eternal glories, and still your eyes are on the ground.” These days, I fear that only oblivion awaits, and that (much as Gertrude Stein said of Oakland, California) there may be “no there there.” Or might this eternal realm be linked to the inky marks we’ve left on fluttering pages, coupled with the neural loci twinkling in the minds of loved ones? Of course, this poet will not tell us––even if she knew. Her work is there to prompt the journey––within ourselves and beyond––gaining some understanding of where the mind’s skiff is carrying us. Perhaps the purpose of poems – Pam’s as well as others––is more in line with what Franz Kafka wrote in his Diaries, considering this very subject: “Even if no salvation should come, I want to be worthy of it at every moment.”
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