( Allie Hasting --Center) |
Querencia Poems and Stories by Allie Hastings. ( Ibbetson Street Press/Endicott College Young Poet Series) ($12)
REVIEW BY JO JO LAZAR
REVIEW BY JO JO LAZAR
When
Doug Holder asked me how I was enjoying Querencia
by Allie Hastings, I told him immediately "I was much more
committed to being mysterious in my poetry as a teenager!" I'm
complimenting her adept voice so early in her career, as the clarity
and conservation of symbols doesn't detract from the range of
experiences and feelings in the work. I compare poems in this
collection to the feeling I get reading Baudelaire (see, "An
Umbrella for Two") and in the nature-centric pieces, some Mary
Oliver. This is a fun, witty, generous collection, with scenes
unfolding a petal at a time from a unique bouquet of life experiences
and imagination. You walk London streets, beaches, take
forest-strolls, and maybe get your heart stomped on a little at music
stores, and coffee shops. These poems and stories are vibrant post
cards from the heart of poetic moments, gifts still raw with "the
thing itself" coupled with the balm of the narrator's wisdom.
The
weather was cool enough to see the air of our breath when either of
us spoke; I left my jacket in your car because I had fooled myself
into believing autumn wasn't quite over yet--the sun was shining over
our heads... The woods, at first glance, appeared a glorious fall
wonderland, but very quickly upon our walk did I feel its brisk
embrace tickle my shoulders, the shivers sending goosebumps to the
surface of my fragile skin.
I
almost asked you if we could turn around and go back so I could get
my jacket out of your car.
But
I didn't want to be that girl.
(-The
Deceptive Nature of Love)
In
the margin I wrote "real minutiae of womanhood and dating,"
I related with the hyper-awareness and hyper-analysis of these
things. All the while the story is assonant, lyrical, layered like
watercolor strokes in Jane Kenyon or Mary Oliver, and poignant
because of too many thresholds of reality occurring all at once. My
first takeaway from this story was the autobiographical
narrator-fallacy-magic feeling that surely I had read something true!
based on writer's felt experience. Hours later I realized it was
another huge layer of liminality, perhaps the entire book Querencia's
meta-theme too is "thresh-hold overload." Too many changes
or possibilities occurring to the mind at once, so we become a slower
camera, absorb every detail. All this crept up on me hours after
reading, and I am still admiring this story (prose-poem) as a
favorite in the collection; what could have been an easy
cliché/play-scene, (a forest walk, a break-up or not? conversation
is about to unfold) is unpeeling in a slow-reveal hours later in
one's mind.
This
lovely book boasts a wise and open "beginner's mind" as one
says in Buddhism. The work is self-aware and not embarrassed to tell
us in the more straight-forward lyrical poems that the
narrator/writer is eighteen, but feels much older. Yet there is
honest impatience to have lived more already, the act of nostalgia is
literally tried on in poems like "Nostalgia." There's also
a youthful sense of the number of times something has happened
--tally feel, a mindset that any writer/journaler may not shake in a
lifetime. The enclosed unit of only so many memories and references
never detracts, I am still thinking about a girl's raincoat and
boots, and another's forgotten jacket in the back of a car. I was
taken to many childhoods, on foreign adventures, and became empathic
tourist to universal and unique scenes of heartbreak. I feel
privileged indeed to remember what poetry can do, to remember how to
report back from the very sparks (scenes/memories/dreams) that make
one want to write at all.
jojo Lazar (jojolazar.com, @poetessS)