Eating
Grief at 3:00 a.m.
by Doug Holder
(Muddy River Books--Brookline, Mass.)
(Muddy River Books--Brookline, Mass.)
Review by Bonnie ZoBell
In
the spare yet rich poetry of Doug Holder's book Eating
Grief at 3:00 a.m., there is a symphony of
voices, places, and sounds. So clear are the ambiences, the run-down
settings, the often broken, yet not always unhappy people who
populate these poems, it's as if you've read a novel.
You
haven't, but the expanse of details encases us in thoughts and a
story much bigger than some novels do. There are so few words used in
this spectacular chapbook counting them wouldn't take long, and yet
they create worlds.
For
example, in the poem "Carpal Tunnel Syndrome," we're told:
I
thought of my father
As
he gripped
His
left hand
Prying
it open with his right
A
hand curling
Into
a callused fetus
Holding
on to
Something
For
dear life.
I know that man,
though I've never met him. His tension, his frustration, his buried
anger at himself and at others make me twitch. That grip makes him
too uncomfortable to want to be around, and yet the idea he has to
hold on so hard to keep it all together makes me want to rescue him.
There are only 31 words in that stanza, and yet I am able to fully
appreciate the man.
Holder's ability to
create such depth of character, to show such fully-wrought human
beings with his sparse and yet impeccable lexicon is enough to make
any novelist envious. In "Father Knows Best-Mother Does the
Rest," anybody who is ever watched the TV show—and many of us
saw a whole generation's worth—will know the essence of this
character in the first few words:
The bland tyranny
of the cardigan
sweater.
His smile
creased in brutal
condescension.
Holder's ability to
portray a sense of place might be even stronger. Consistently
throughout these gems the reader feels the setting and its meaning
immediately. In "Transcendence," we're told:
I'm 84 floors up
but the city
only seems to
make sense
from my exalted
omnipotence.
So many of us who've
lived in large urban centers have felt reduced by circumstances and
the anonymity that living among great masses can bring.
The old men
leftover from bigger days who live in the heart of so many of our
cities are elegantly depicted in "Eating Grief at Bickford's,"
a poem dedicated to Allen Ginsberg:
There are no
places anymore
Where I can sit at
a threadbare table
Pick at the crumbs
on my plate . . .
The old men
Who used to spout
Marxist
Rants from
The cracked
porcelain of their cups
Are gone
The boiling water
Ketchup soup
The mustard
sandwich
These
used to relish
Throughout this
collection of a time gone by, there is a sense of a whole nation of
people who used to be the carriers of big ideas and ideals, people we
may see ourselves as today. Only that older set of folks are in the
margins now, hidden in the crevices. Younger people march into bars
and cafes, pass them on the street, and don't even see those older
humans, so sure are they of their own omnipotence, of their own
starring roles. A past art teacher from one of the narrators' third
grade classes worked hard all her life and is now reduced to being an
old, angry woman painting caricatures of angry old women, something a
younger person finds completely irrelevant. A man thinks back to one
of his many trips to Kentucky Fried when he tried to put the
brittle-boned, old chicken back together again but now understands
you can never put the bird together again for all we are bones.
Humor abounds in
these poems filled with people who aren't always at the top of their
game. This and the alluring use of language allow us to travel the
depths of some of these narratives and not become dispirited but
instead find a warm familiarity of life expressed sublimely. This is
who we are and this is who we will become.
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Bonnie ZoBell’s new connected collection, What Happened Here, a novella and stories centered on the site PSA Flight 182 crashed in the North Park area of San Diego, will be published in February 2014 by Press 53. . Her work has appeared in numerous publications, including Night Train, The Greensboro Review, New Plains Review, PANK, and The Connotation Press. ZoBell has been a fellow at such residencies at Yaddo, MacDowell, and attended such conferences as the Bread Loaf Writers Conference, Tin House Summer Workshop, and the Squaw Valley Community of Writers. After receiving an MFA from Columbia on fellowship, she has been teaching at San Diego Mesa College where she is a Creative Writing Coordinator. Currently she is Associate Editor for The Northville Review and Flash Fiction Chronicles. .
To order a PDF of the Spring 2014 edition of the Gently Read Review go to http://www.gentlyread.wordpress.com
To order Eating Grief at 3AM go to: http://www.lulu.com/us/en/shop/doug-holder/eating-grief-at-3-am/paperback/product-21232327.html
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Bonnie ZoBell’s new connected collection, What Happened Here, a novella and stories centered on the site PSA Flight 182 crashed in the North Park area of San Diego, will be published in February 2014 by Press 53. . Her work has appeared in numerous publications, including Night Train, The Greensboro Review, New Plains Review, PANK, and The Connotation Press. ZoBell has been a fellow at such residencies at Yaddo, MacDowell, and attended such conferences as the Bread Loaf Writers Conference, Tin House Summer Workshop, and the Squaw Valley Community of Writers. After receiving an MFA from Columbia on fellowship, she has been teaching at San Diego Mesa College where she is a Creative Writing Coordinator. Currently she is Associate Editor for The Northville Review and Flash Fiction Chronicles. .