William
Evans’s We Inherit What the Fires Left,
Simon and Schuster Paperbacks, reviewed by Gregory J. Wolos
As I reread William Evans’s powerful
new book of poems, We Inherit What the
Fires Left, in preparation for writing this review, I couldn’t help but
think of Covid-19 and its oversized impact on the Black community. The virus,
to me, seemed an apt metaphor for the enmity—the kind of toxic, historical
racism—Evans struggles to rise above as a father and a Black man as he examines
through his poetry his own defeats and victories. The reader watches as Evans
attempts to convey to his daughter—and interpret for himself— the particular
vulnerabilities their flesh is heir to. But viruses, even devastating
pandemics, are not willfully malevolent; diseases eventually succumb to
therapies and vaccines deriving from humankind’s united intelligence and
effort. And metaphors, while they may serve to explain, are only shadows. Evans,
through his poems, carries the reader with him as he maneuvers through the
actual landscape left by the fires of ignorance and hatred that represent his
and his family’s inheritance. As I read the poems in We Inherit What the Fires Left, I’m forced to confront the fires
fed by my own inherited white privilege, even as it inoculated me against the
flames’ destructive force.
In the collection’s opening poem,
“The Engine,” Evans, as he records his daughter watching as a sunset “fell out
of the window,” offers us his own point of view: “I had a cut above my eye
once/ and assumed everything I saw was bleeding.” He understands nightfall as
“a black they can’t murder” and celebrates “days my car makes it /to the
garage” as “days I can live forever.” He sees himself in the present through
his past: “Even flattened against the street, an officer’s/ knee in my back, I
look young for my age.” And how will this legacy help Evans educate his
daughter, who, as he observes in “Mimic,” “is already my mimic after all,/
having taken my nose/ and eyes and smile for her own”? Knowing what to share
with his child and what not to is a continuing struggle, because “I never/ know
what windows are worth/ destroying.” His daughter knows he is Santa Claus, and
he corrects her when she calls a baseball a football. He equivocates when she
says her grandparents are in heaven, telling her “close enough.” But how to
deal with the threatening paradoxes of life? When together they see a deer,
“beautiful and liquid” and “the girl’s eyes widened/ until light came from
them,” the father is silent and smiling as she tells him “it’s so cool.” He thinks, but does not tell her, not yet, “Did you know that some people shoot them?”
Evans reveals his own ambiguous feelings toward mercy in “Might Have to Kill,”
in which his own pacifist father (“who marched against the war”) wants him to
kill a groundhog that’s messing up the lawn. Did Evans learn his pacifism
“after the third fight/ in the third white neighborhood”? He distracts his
daughter when she asks him to kill a spider, and identifying with the gopher,
wondering what it would do “if it knew it were being hunted.” Ultimately, he
argues that the “summer is nearly over,”
giving his father to understand that “the boy who looks like him/ waiting for
the sun to finally go down” is hoping to avoid being the deliverer of death.
Evans expects that there are lessons
his daughter will learn for herself by simple observation. In “Waves,” when she
wades in the ocean and wonders what secrets the ocean will bring to the shore,
he mutters under his breath, “Probably slaves,” keeping his own cynicism to
himself for the time being. He remembers “what lessons/ I give without ever
offering,” a point illustrated on the ride home, when “an officer/ pulls us to
the side of the road/ and asks me whose car I am driving/ my family home in.” As
a father, Evans must perform a delicate balance between protecting his daughter
and teaching her to protect herself. When, in “Passing for Day,” she climbs
into her parents’ bed late at night, he waits until he hears her “soft snore,”
like “a subtle prayer against my neck, then I know it is safe to rise” before
sliding out of bed, because “building a heaven doesn’t mean you get to stay.”
In “Sharks and Minnows” Evans forces himself to play an active role in his
daughter’s education. As the girls on her soccer team dash around the field,
giggling as they avoid the soccer balls kicked to “tag” them by their own coach
and their parents, the poet follows the pattern of near misses until he feels
compelled to offer a necessary toughening: “because I haven’t tagged anyone/ with
a ball in a long while and my role/ could not be more clear, I begin/ to kick
the soccer balls harder.” Some lessons seem impossible to teach: in “Looking
Over My Shoulder She Discovers a Lynching” Evans hopes his daughter will
“please remember this picture” as she learns to distinguish between the whites
in the photograph (the same “not-people” who “pulled your dad from the car”)
and her “friends from school, from gymnastics, from Build-a-Bear,” and teachers
who “look like the not-people.”
Raising his daughter in a racist
society, Evans ruminates about his own issues with assimilation, unable and
unwilling to forget in “After the Storm, It Was Business as Usual,” about “the
time a cop appeared/ and asked me if I lived at the home I was punching my garage
code into.” How can Evans make peace with the society he describes in “I Will
Love You Most When I Barely Remember Anything,” in which “I drop my daughter
off at school/ An officer pulls/ me out of the car as the sun goes down.
Something died in between”? In “How to Assimilate” Evans remembers surprising a
visiting white friend with an empty gun “even though I knew it wasn’t/ that
funny.” For the friend the experience “wasn’t cool,” and the poet “could never
really/ figure out why I aimed a hollow/ threat at my friend except/ to say
that I probably gave him something I know so well.” As for his fears regarding
his role in his daughter’s education, Evans muses in the first poem of the
collection’s third and final section, “You haven’t been right/ since your high
school teacher told you to stop/ showing off in class. Now you get nauseous/
when your daughter aces her spelling test./ When you were younger, your father
overheard you/ talking to you white friends and told you/ code-switching will
kill you.”
Evans recalls times in his youth
when he silenced his own voice, that “I was once a beautiful bouquet of new
stalks,/ but nobody told us what it takes to bloom.” In “Pledge to Raising a
Black Girl,” he asks, “Do you know how many/ classrooms I either dulled my
sharp or dulled/ my black until I got tired of being the only/ kingdom without
its own campaign?/ How do you know what you have a taste for/ if you’ve been
told never to show your teeth?” Part of the “pledge” alluded to in the poem’s
title seems aimed at allowing his daughter to retain her own voice in the face
of the difficulties she is sure to confront. There is a touch of pride in the
poet’s voice as he describes his daughter: “You would’ve thought we set that
girl on fire/how she got so cocky, smart as a broken window.” Evans argues,
“Can’t be mad at the talk/ back because we did teach her to talk shit.” A
lesson learned that he hopes to impart to his daughter.
In the final poem of We Inherit What the Fires Left, Evans
concludes that the way “things don’t die” is that “[t]hey are loved on by
those/ too young to believe in death’s/ argument.” And in a brief prose piece
that ends the volume, he questions “What happens when black bodies are still
full of life and ambition?” He claims that he has “planted a stake in a
neighborhood and a future and have decided that nothing will move me so
easily.” He acknowledges the survival of his father, “born after the dawn of
the civil rights era, as well as his own “as the boy who can chart the violence
against [his father] through the neighborhoods he has lived.” When he and his
father are gone, “there is another—my daughter—who may have to fight in similar
ways . . . to rebel in similar ways. But she will do it, from her own plot, a
governance unto herself. We,” Evans asserts, “aren’t going anywhere.”
And I, a father and grandfather
myself, can admire and sympathize with Evans’s ambition and fears, vividly and
tenderly expressed in We Inherit What the Fires Left: sympathize, but not
empathize, secure but guilty about the protection my privileged skin provides
me against viruses metaphorical and real.
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